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Why I Woke Up Gasping for Breath This Morning

Jen Engevik
6 min readSep 23, 2020

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I woke this morning to a troubling dream— one in which I was not making a client of mine happy and him trying to take away a branding project that I’ve worked so hard on.

“If you don’t do it my way, I’m going to have to ask for a refund and have someone else finish it,” he threatened.

In my dream, I pled with him to keep the project: “I’ll do anything. I really need to money, as business has been slower than usual. Please let me remedy it.”

He finally gave in after watching me squirm… reminding me that if I wasn’t going to play it his way, he would change his mind.

I woke up anxious and literally jumped out of bed to get started on my day.

Thankfully, it wasn’t real, but it reminded me of how I’ve felt lately — like I’m on the brink of losing everything that matters most.

Gulp…

But I’m here now, and I know I’m not alone. There are people (a lot) out there trying to figure out what’s next.

And this is where I’ve started to re-evaluate everything. My worth. My purpose. Hopes. Dreams.

What was I put on this planet for, anyway?

My Mom (and hero, who passed away five years ago) used to always tell me there is a greater purpose for my existence…

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Jen Engevik
Jen Engevik

Written by Jen Engevik

I'm a writer, lover of life, Curious George in human form - love to share ideas, inspire others, offer hope and kindness and seize the day.

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